who am I

im not that after the club when ur drunk chic, not that call u when im lonely to come thru chic, im not that side or on the sly chic…im not that materialistic diva show out in front of ur friends chic..that let me hold u down..with prayer..ride or die.. for the name of JESUS chic..build u up..never tear u down..never a thorn..always a crown chic..push u to be better..never bitter..love u to life..NEVER DEATH chic

May 4, 2012 my son Tytan Amari Qasim Mitchell came into the world… HE is a PRINCE… one amazing little man…

For 9 months I literally let the fact that I had sex out of wedlock and became pregnant, put me into a shell. Overwhelmed with shame I really didn’t knwo what I was going to do… I took 2 very long breaks from people to try and figure out what I was going to do.

See I was proud of myself for not having sex for 2 years. I was starting to have pride.. that was my downfall.. I prided myself in something that I myself didn’t do. Celibacy is hard.. and it isn’t easy.. matter of fact.. it’s one of the hardest things I’ve ever done and the ONLY reason I was able to do it was the strength I got from God. But like I said I began to be prideful in what I thought I had accomplished on my own. It wasn’t something that I just openly said, “Oh look I did this on my own” but I surely acted like it. I never gave God the glory for giving me strength and I began having a sense of pride when I would talk about being celibate while others around me were falling.

I recall in 2 years becoming angry with certain people who I once looked up to, for their sexual sins. A very good friend named Vince who I thought the world of got his girlfriend pregnant and I remember being so mad at him. I was hurt… I felt like he let me down… and I literally just stopped talking to him.. I felt like he had hurt me but it wasn’t even about me. It was about his witness and I felt like he had let God down. But that wasn’t for me to decide. Then I experienced a failed relationship with someone that went and had sex with someone. I was at the end of my rope I was really upset. I couldnt figure out why all these people who were clailming to love the Lord were out having sex.

Then there came my situation… we put ourselves in a compromising situation. The details aren’t important. What happened wasn’t important. All that’s important is it happened and now we have this amazing little boy. And a lesson learned. j

No matter how far we are in our walk… if we just began or have come a long way… none of us are immune to tempation… BUT the other lesson learned is no matter what we do.. we are forgiven.. now this isn’t a license to sin.. grace is never a license to go out and sin… BUT grace is given when we make these mistakes…

Satan will always try and use shame to quiet us up. He will tell us look what you did you’re not good enough. God will never forgive you. How dare you? He tried to do this to me. I was so concerned with what others would say that I allowed myself to let the enemy of my soul make me feel like my fall was too much.. when in actuality it was just another step in my walk… but it was an important lesson for me to learn… I didn’t get this far on my own… it was God and him only that got me this far. It was by his strength and his only that I was able to be celibate.

I know I use to rep team celibate hard… and I will still tell people how important it is to remain celibate…. but I will also tell you… if you make that mistake… if you cross that line… it’s ok… we make mistakes… get up and brush yourself off… satan cant keep you down… falling on your face just puts you in a perfect position to PRAY.. :)

I’m actually very excited about ths new chapter in my life…

I still hold my position on soul ties.. and sex… sex can destroy you..soul ties can keep you tied to someone that you weren’t ever meant to be tied to… it is important as women that we remember the importance of keeping our purity.. and respecting ourselves and our bodies… we should save ourselves the heartache that comes with premarital sex and wait until marriage…

I love every single one of my kids… I wouldn’t change it for the world… I also love Q he is an amazing father and loves our kids … are we married? NO not yet.. and we aren’t gonna rush into marriage just because we had another kid… what we are doing is allowing God to lead us where he wants us to go.

Remember someone will always have something to say about your short comings.. your sins.. your falls… dont worry about them.. at the end of the day all that matters is what you and God know… people will always have something to say about your sins.. because they dont want people to find out their secret sins… Just love em harder :)!!!!!!

My 2 fav boys

Tytan Amari Qasim Mitchell got here yesterday May 4 at 10:16 am he is beautiful amazing and healthy!!!!!!

JUST A LIL SUMMIN FOR THE LADIES

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn’t want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that’s not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you, as you deserve then heck no, you can’t “be friends.” A friend wouldn’t mistreat a friend. Don’t settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don’t stay because you think, “it will get better.” You’ll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Always have your own set of friends separate from his. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later. You cannot change a man’s behavior Change comes from within. Don’t EVER make him feel he is more important than you are… even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less. Never let a man define who you are. Never borrow someone else’s man. If he cheated with you, he’ll cheat on you. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you. All men are NOT dogs. You should not be the one doing all the bending… compromise is a two way street. You need time to heal between relationships… there is nothing cute about baggage deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship. You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you…a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals…look for someone complimentary…not supplementary. Dating is fun…even if he doesn’t turn out to be Mr. Right. Make him miss you sometimes…when a man always knows where you are, and you’re always readily available to him- he takes it for granted. Don’t fully commit to a man who doesn’t give you everything that you need. Keep him in your radar but get to know others. Share this with other ladies….. You’ll make someone SMILE, another RETHINKS his/her choices, and another man/woman PREPARE. They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them! BY THE WAY, A MAN WROTE THIS, SO TAKE A HINT………..

Anonymous asked: How do you feel about having another baby out of wedlock? This isn't an attack whatsoever. I know of a lot of Christian girls getting pregnant out of wedlock and I think its important for people see that it is truly a struggle for all of us.

i actually am writing a blog about this… i dont take it as condemnation or an attack at all… we as christians have to know that we do make mistakes… but not let it control us or ruin our witness…. but we also must know that we are held accountable…. but like i said i am writing a blog about this because if eel like it is important to talk about it… so please stay tuned it will be up soon :)

My daughter wrote this today for her baby brother… It makes me wanna cry.. child like faith.. born to love JESUS